Drunken Apologies

I’d like to take this moment to apologize
to anyone that’s ever been on my side
that I’ve lashed out at
because I’m too afraid to be euthanized
to afraid to fall victim to the truth inside
There are
many times I’ve lied
many times I’ve cried
many times I’ve tried
but to no avail
I told myself I failed
to find the holy grail
that there’s no cure to what ails me
that I can’t be what I say I’ll be
but eventually
you’ll see what I see
What’s thrifty can be wealthy
the things that built me are healthy
secretly
stealthily
The same can go for you too
US
WE
we can fall in love with you too
I gamble
I ramble
but I know there are things
that I know that are true