III. Spending Time

Finally we had a chance
to really spend some time together
A whole week of dining and dancing
Ice skating and travel by cruise
Learning the difference between
Kayaks and canoes
during daring adventures by the river

So much fun
exhilaration and excitement
but still I could feel
that something was not quite right
Sometimes I would catch him
staring off into space
lost in a time and place yet to be
at times it seemed like nostalgia
Other times seemed like some unsettling memory
which kind of concerned me
When I would ask
I could see his mind
running from the thought

Though there were many
secrets he had divulged
there was more he had yet to tell me
I waited for a quiet moment
towards the end of our last day
of fun and debauchery
I didn’t relent until he told me
My goal was to assert myself verbally
In hindsight
I might have had a more aggressive inflection
than necessary

It was a short story
solemn and somber
A mimicry of events
stored within my own memory
Seeing some stranger wither away
before my very eyes
when I had yet to realize
I was fated to fall in love
with him

That’s when it registered for me
He had seen how I die
and at some point he learned
he would suffer the same fate
giving me a second chance

Now knowing that my path
would turn out the same way
I felt a strange pain
But his moment is much closer
than mine
And drawing ever near
And he knows it
And he braves it
And he loves me
I know how he feels
because the same sentiment
now dwells within my chest
Deeply within my breast
Stirring my now breaking heart
I see the few tears streaming down his face
even as he looks away
trying to hide them
Tears I’m sure were spawned
from anxiety
Morbid memory
and my insensitivity about it
Before I realize what I’m doing
I reach out and turn his face towards me
so I can kiss him
Long and deep
Hoping that it can compete
with the others he’s received
from me

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4. Timeless